Monday, June 25, 2012

I must say that the prospect of handling my blog myself without further assistance from my Webmaster was a bit daunting.  But, ya know, I’ve discovered it’s really quite simple, even for someone like me who makes no pretenses of pretending that I’m any kind of techie.  I like the format of this new site.  Also, I appreciate being able to upload posts as soon as I’ve written them rather than having to wait.  Figure I’ll play with the site a bit, make routine posts for a spell, before I get into fancier things like trying to redesign the site or rewrite the about me sections, etc.  But fear not, my mind is whirring away on hyper speed with all the possibilities this new site has to offer.  Just a matter of time before I’ll begin to implement some of them.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Today, a friend asked why I feel compelled to push myself so hard in all that I do. This came up when I mentioned how I hadn’t written a blog for Friday. He asked if I felt guilty, and I was surprised by my answer, which was, no. Then I went on to explain that I’d missed writing it due to all the fun I was having while with my sister.

That led into a discussion about what I do on an average day. How I feel driven to write a daily blog. Write my books on a fast track. Respond to everyone that writes to me. Keep up with writing my articles. Maintaining my E-zine. Work out faithfully, etc, etc, etc.

When I was done, my friend just sat there, staring at me, incredulous by the amount of pressure I put myself under, while at the same time enormously impressed by how I manage to pull it all off while maintaining a sunny disposition.

Talking with him further, I realized I was doing the opposite of what I blog about often. Instead of seeing to my needs, I’m utterly devoted to ensuring that I serve the needs of everyone else, ultimately depleting my own tanks.

Then he looked at me and remarked on the statement that I hadn’t yet written today’s blog. He said, “I think you should cut back.”

My immediate thought was no way! Then I took a step back and rethought, coming to the conclusion that he was right. That perhaps only generating a blog three to four times a week would be a good idea.

And so I adopted that concept…for about an hour and a half. In the end, however, I realized something paramount about myself. I don’t just write my daily blogs for all of you. I scribe them as a form of processing through my own life. Thoughts. Philosophies. And when I came to that conclusion, I knew that creating a daily blog was serving my needs and thus something I was unwilling to give up. As such, here is today’s blog, as usual, full of my own thoughts and evolving process of self-discovery.