Tuesday, March 8, 2011

After learning what happened to my girlfriend, today I’ve felt…off. Like the world’s going at a slower pace. It’s not, and nor am I. But that’s how it feels. Although I’ve actually had a very productive day, getting one thing after another checked off my to-do list, many of which have been carried over for the longest time, I’ve found myself thinking and rethinking about what happened. How my girlfriend was quick to point out that no one is immune. That violence can befall anyone.

I haven’t felt sad or upset, just like I’ve needed to think things through on a deeper level—my way of processing. And so, that’s what I’ve done today. I kind of went on auto-pilot, accomplishing tons of things while my mind was actively trying to sort everything out in a way that I could somehow come to terms with all that’s happened and will continue to over the coming months…and perhaps longer.

As I sit here writing this, I feel at peace. Well, maybe that’s not quite the right word—peace, for there’s nothing peaceful about such a violent attack. But I have managed to find a way to accept what has happened so that I can move forward in a way that will be most beneficial to my girlfriend, for what she needs now…and will as time plays out.